Many decades ago, I heard Conti say, "You are what you do. If you drive a cab five days a week, and play music on the week-end, you are not a musician, you are a cab driver who plays music". I found the refreshing honesty, a challenge. Us baby boomers enshrined the idea that you can be whatever you want to be, if you just wish it hard enough or had enough money to help others agree with you. The magic act of saying something three times making it true (which our 40th president didn't invent) was practised all over, like children, "I am a ballet dancer, I am a ballet dancer, I am a ballet dancer." This is where the right-wing Ayn Rand selfishness reached over and kissed the left wing self-realization nuts, firmly on the lips, with Walt Disney sprinkling pixie dust on the wedding. In this world where wanabees out numbered actual artists by great measure, whole industries grew up to feed the perpetuating lies. Bill Conti's clear eyed honesty, which is also the route to motivation if one wants to "become" something, requires practice. They don't have those "practice rooms" at today's music schools. There is several orders of magnitude more people teaching composition, today, then make a living at it. Making a living means that the money you are paid as commission, and subsequent royalties on sales and performance of the music, is enough to pay your mortgage/rent, your groceries, your health, home and car insurance etc. Whenever I bring this up, all sorts of teachers who imagine themselves composers/musicians get bent out of shape, after all, who am I to say what they are? How dare I measure things in such a capitalistic way? But I wonder, what is wrong with being a teacher, what is the ego-investment in a label that would make an otherwise intelligent person go all tinker bell? Are they embarrassed that at a late age, they still aspire to
become something different from what they are? Charles Ives
was an amateur, does that make him any worse? Then again, I sure wish that nincompoop sax player, Alan Greenspan, had been foolish enough to try to keep on making music his living. Anyway, one is free to self-label, and what other people think is their business.
I don't mean to propose a change, nor to put an end to this curious academic fairyland, anymore then I would want to put an end to
Societies of Poodle Skirt Wearers, although they are, both, endangered by their own anachronisms. Someday, a generation or two from now, after the 103rd dissertation on
Hildegard Von Bingen's left eyebrow and the note Bb has been excepted, someone will turn off the light and close the door, and walk off into that brave new world where they might have to confront the existence of themselves amongst many living and breathing humans who are immersed in a musical behavior much more measurable, understandable and pertinent simply by the fact that it exists concurrently.
When I was in Boston music schools, during the early seventies, I was lucky enough to maintain a professional life that consisted of some long stints at local night clubs. The usual six month gig consisted of five-six nights a week, and sometimes a matinee on Sunday. Each night was usually five sets between 9pm-2am, forty minutes on and twenty off. That meant three hours of actual playing with a group in front of an audience, and this, many times after an hour or two practice at home. To paraphrase, the muscular strength this gave to my... hands, and by this I mean both strength and muscle knowledge, made all the difference (added to the great teacher's pointers at NEC). These opportunities were already anachronisms then, they don't exist anymore, a "musician" proudly talks about his "gig" where he goes and plays for an hour a week, for less money then would cover his half-price drinks and transportation (and if he were like me, his strings). If I was Berklee, I would reopen ten bars on that stretch of Mass Ave. that was hot in the fifties (south of Gainsborough etc.) and make the students play a similar schedule, no cover charge, cheap drinks and cutting contests attracting all sorts to the excitement. Of course, ten bars could only suffice for, say, seventy musicians, and Berklee is training
3,500!. As long as I am kind of ranting, I just thought I'd say something about all the idiots about these days, who would think nothing of spending $15.00 for a martini, and yet could not fathom paying a "cover" charge (to pay musicians). Oh that's right, drinking kills, smoking kills, don't go out without a helmet and a liability lawyer attached. See, it is not just "classical" music that is going down the tubes in live performance! Greg Sandow seemed to think I was nuts when I suggested this, but I still bet it is accurate: one symphony orchestra, take the BSO, means there are more
musicians, people who make
a living playing music in the classical music field of Boston, then all the other musical genres in Boston, combined.
By the way, I thought I would mention in case anyone cared about my thinly veiled "anonymity" at this blog, as I am a recovering alcoholic/drug addict, and this blog started as mostly a personal purge where I sometimes exposed that fact, I am trying to maintain the traditions of the association that has helped me to stay clean and sober. My name and even my email is available if one wants to look about, carefully.
It was
BMO who got me all riled up for the new year, I am hoping to pass it on. If this gets you riled up, say something. Just don't get lazy with a, "there are many papers being published about contemporary music" whine. IT IS NOT TRUE! I have kept a careful eye on the AMS and other outfits, papers and book publishing, contemporary subjects are still a minority.
Ah, why bother, Yanks are just afraid that they will lose the money they have and not get what they think they need, otherwise they would have practised a national strike about this war a long time ago. They can manage that in other countries, even though they have the same fears, here it is, "I can't, I have to go in, it is contractual, but you don't understand, I have a wife and kids, responsibilities, I have a husband and kids, I, I, I, I. aye, aye, aye..... fuck those middle easterners, let 'em die with bombs and bullets that our kids will pay for.
Happy gnu deer, boy, I feel better :-)